Extended.

As I’ve said before. I’m working on an extended about me, right? (;

Hey. My name is Katrina ( kah-tree-nuh or ka-tri-nah ). Nice to meet you. I’m going to try and do my best to describe my personality. Even though it’s pretty hard. I’m a Filipino citizen, living in the Philippines. I’m not sure, but I think I have a little Malay blood or something. D: Sorry. I can speak English, Filipino.. and a bit of Japanese. I’m straight. o.o;

I don’t like bullshit. (; I’m not pathetically insecure, neither do I need you to compliment me 24/7. But, I do like hearing it and I appreciate it. But, if you just can’t handle anything without your bullshit-y complaints about me, then tell me, personally. But, I won’t change for you. No, I won’t. Just tell me if you have a problem with me so I can delete you from my friends list. It’s a little stupid for you to still be hanging out there if you hate me so much, don’t you think?

I don’t think you’ll ever understand me, but don’t judge, just try and understand. I’m really a happy person, but I have a split-personality ( no, not schizo, hun ). But, you won’t ever see that other side of me. I have trust issues. I’m very complex. Difficult. Multifaceted. I can assure you, that if you attempt to break down my barriers, your head will hurt. But, when you successfully break it down – headaches will be gone. This is really just my personality, and I don’t think I’ll ever change. Though, it has a lot of negative aspects in it, I’ve never really had complaints about it before, and I won’t lie about who I am. I won’t change. So, you generally have two options. Take it, or leave it.

I prefer to spend my life alone rather than with someone or everybody. It takes too much effort and work on my side. And, being the lazy person that I am, I don’t like that. Whenever I like someone, I turn into this super-high standard girl and become disappointed. Never mind that. I’m highly jealous and regardless if we’re together, or not - I will want all of your attention. But, there will be times when I don’t even want to talk to you, and there will also be times when you’re all I want. Then again, I’ll never survive a relationship, because I’m much too selfish and greedy. I’m not really a cold-hearted girl, so don’t assume I’m an asshole. Because, I’m not. (: — But, then again, I’m emotionally cold at times. I don’t really like giving out my personal information over the internet, but sometimes people give me theirs. Strange, really.

I’m one of those people who you need to put effort in when you talk to. I don’t know how to break the ice. Only because, almost everything I tell you is hard to understand.

Every time you think you are getting closer to me, in reality, you’re just further than you were before.

I have to say I am a little odd. I strive for abnormalities. I am quite, proudly, peculiar. “Normal” never existed. I color my own world. I don’t really understand why people spread bullshit about me; I haven’t done anything wrong though. But, they enjoy their gossip, so who cares?

I don’t put up with people I don’t like, and I don’t put up with people who don’t like me. ( But, why wouldn’t you like me? )

I don’t like people touching my shoulders, or my hands for that matter. I don’t like people touching me, period. (Which is a little of a contradiction, because I must say, I do quite a bit of touching) I have to solve the mystery why I dislike physical intimacy. But, my number one pet peeve is when people feel the urge to touch my hair. Just don’t do it. It’s just hair. But, if you feel you can’t live without touching it, ask first. Especially when it’s styled or I’m wearing a headband. It’s programmed that way. And it’ll take hours to put it back again.

For some particular reason, people tend to get close or rather, attached, to me. I find it a tad bit strange because.. err. Actually, it is strange, period. Especially when, err, like, when I’m walking around with someone, and s/he’s following me, it agitates me. Really.

Sometimes, I want someone to be with me, or, I can be ’sweet’, but sometimes ( oftentimes, lol ), I’m the complete opposite. If you can’t understand why I do that, or you don’t understand me, don’t pretend that you do, because it’ll be hard for you when it backfires. You really have to understand, that sometimes, I need to be alone and sometimes I don’t want people near me. It’s a little oxymoronic, because I love meeting new people and I like making friends. I have a thing with not telling people what I don’t like about them, and there is usually ALWAYS something I dislike about an individual… I usually don’t tell them what I dislike because I don’t want them to change; it’s just a little thing they do that bothers me. They change. I don’t want that. Because it seems like I’m so manipulative. I don’t like that.

I have to say though that everyone has their own insecurities. But, I get irritated with people who constantly tell themselves they are ‘ugly’. I mean, I don’t want to say you’re so pretty or handsome 24/7 hoping to give you blind comfort. Don’t expect people to love you, if you don’t even love yourself.

I’m a little straightforward when it comes to discussions about – anything, really. Some people think it’s being ‘harsh’, but, if the bluntness of my statement bothers you, I’d have to say you’re a little ‘stupid’. Why ask me if you’ll just be ‘sad’ because you thought I was being harsh. I’m clearing up this issue now. Okay?

I really dislike people who complain about EVERYTHING. When it can be changed, they should just do something about it instead of ranting about it.

 This weird negativity is seriously bringing me down, down, down.

I like starting sentences with “I”. 

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